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  THE WUS didn’t go to the Olympic games because of the traffic in downtown Atlanta, but they watched TV and followed the news. It was so hot that some athletes fainted during competitions. The local Chinese-language newspapers carried articles on how the American staff at the Olympic Village based at Georgia Tech had inconvenienced the Chinese athletes to ensure they couldn’t perform at their best. One night the fire alarm in the dorm building housing the Chinese women swimmers went off, and the police came and ordered everybody out. The athletes stayed in the damp night air a whole hour, and few of them could sleep well afterward. As a result, they did poorly in the events the following day. What’s worse, the schedules and maps provided by the Olympic Headquarters were often inaccurate, and some people missed their events or arrived so late that they had to forfeit their games. The Chinese officials lodged a complaint; so did some other countries.

  The Wus half believed those reports, but Shubo and Niyan were convinced of them all. There was also a long protest letter in the local newspapers, condemning the NBC commentator’s remarks on China at the opening ceremony. The protesters were soliciting more signatures. True, the commentator had criticized China’s human rights record, its military threat to Taiwan, its athletes’ doping, and its tolerance of counterfeiting intellectual property. Many Chinese here resented his comments, believing this was another case of China-bashing. These days torrents of angry words had poured in to the Olympic Headquarters, demanding an apology from NBC and from Robert Coleman, the commentator. Some Chinese students urged people to fax more letters to the media company so as to “jam their machines.” Funds were being raised for a full-page protest in the New York Times.

  Nan said to Shubo, “If China is so sensitive to criticism and public opinion, why doesn’t it apologize to its people for the Tiananmen massacre? Compared with the Chinese government, this NBC man is completely innocent. I don’t see why people are so furious and even want to have him fired.”

  “This isn’t just politics. It’s about national pride,” said Shubo. He had come in to watch the games on the TV hung in the corner, which had a larger screen than the one in his home.

  “National pride, my butt,” Nan said. “What can the Chinese be proud of nowadays? The largest population and cheap labor?”

  “Still, that anchorman had no right to condemn China at the opening ceremony.”

  “How come? Only because he’s an American, not entitled to criticize China? I don’t understand why the Chinese here also believe that domestic shame mustn’t be made public.”

  “Our athletes were guests of the United States. You can’t invite them over and then humiliate them publicly. It’s the host’s responsibility to make the guests feel welcome.’”

  “The reason every country is here is to win medals. Who cares about friendship or politeness or hospitality? That’s just Chinese idiosyncrasy and hypocrisy.”

  “You have a heck of a mouth, Nan. So hard to please.”

  Shubo held a full-time job in a marble quarry now, so he could no longer always fill in for Nan when his help was needed. Nan found an old chef, Mr. Mu, who was good at Hunan cuisine but didn’t have a work permit, so Nan couldn’t use this sleepy-eyed man regularly. If the INS caught Mr. Mu working they could fine Nan $5,000. These days Shubo would come in the evenings, mainly to watch TV. Also, he wanted to keep his wife company whenever he could. Pingping often said to Niyan, “I wish Nan were as sticky as Shubo.” By “sticky” she meant “attached.” Niyan would smile without speaking.

  Then one day the same woman who had solicited a donation for the flood victims in China from the Wus four years earlier turned up at the Gold Wok again. Nan remembered her name, Mei Hong. This time she said pleasantly to him while patting his forearm, “Nan Wu, we need you to help feed the Chinese athletes.”

  “We don’t donate anything,” he said as his wife stepped closer.

  “I’m not asking for donations. We’ll pay you for the food. Only because you’re a Chinese, we can trust you.”

  “That’s why you came here?” He was nonplussed.

  “Yes, the other Chinese restaurants have offered their help too. We dare not get food from foreigners.”

  “Why can’t the athletes eat inside the Olympic Village? There are cafeterias in there. I saw them on TV.”

  “They can’t stand American food—cheese, hamburgers, French fries, sandwiches, hot dogs. Yuck, the stuff makes you heavy and sick.”

  “How about Tyson chicken? That’s as good as any Chinese-style chicken, braised or roasted.”

  She made no reply, apparently unfamiliar with that brand. What she wanted from the Gold Wok was five helpings of plain rice and shrimp sautéed with vegetables every day for two weeks. She would come toward midday to pick up the food and pay thirty dollars for it. The lunch was only for the athletes who were going to have events in the afternoon, a kind of treat. Nan prepared the rice and the dish as well as he could and was generous with the portions. Mei Hong would come to collect it and then drive all the way to a gas station outside Georgia Tech, since she didn’t have a pass for the Olympic Village. A Chinese official would meet her there to receive the food. The Olympics had suddenly activated many local Chinese and united their minds and energies.

  Although Nan said they were all being ridiculous, he couldn’t help feeling delighted whenever he saw the Chinese national flag rising in the stadium. When he opened a newspaper, he’d check to see how many medals China had won. Sometimes even a Chinese face on TV would attract his attention in a peculiar way, as if he knew that person. He realized that emotionally he couldn’t separate himself from those people completely. This realization troubled him, and for days he was cranky. His mind remained confused until he saw a performance on the pommel horse by a stolid-faced man named Donghua Li, a former Chinese gymnast but a Swiss citizen now. That performance moved Nan and threw him deep into thought. Li had quit China’s national team in order to marry a Swiss woman. He left his native country in 1988, but couldn’t compete in international events because he had to wait five years to be naturalized. Now, at age twenty-nine, he was here in Atlanta representing Switzerland alone in gymnastics. While the other athletes loosened up for the pommel horse competition, he was napping in a corner with an opened magazine over his face and with his shoes stacked together as a pillow under his head. Few people took notice of him. Not until it was his turn to perform did he get up from the floor. The commentator joked, “He’s woken up finally.”

  Li performed on the horse with aplomb, keeping his feet pointed while his legs swung high, nimbly executing the scissors movement, as if they had no weight. Then with ease he circled above the horse, keeping his feet together and his legs straight at a right angle to his upper body. He obviously was superior to all the other competitors. Throughout his program, never did his pants touch the horse. Nan watched closely. Despite the lightness of his movement, Li’s facial muscles were all knotted, and sweat was glistening on his forehead. Swinging up his legs, he made a flank vault and landed stock-still. Applause burst out all around. He earned 9.875, high enough for the gold. After the event, he blew a kiss to his wife sitting among the audience, but he refused to be interviewed by the Chinese reporters following him. Instead, he turned to shake hands with the leading Russian gymnast, Aleksei Nemov, and gave him a thumbs-up. Nan was eager to see this fellow again in other events and to root for him, but Li never reappeared on the screen.

  Another scene, however, troubled Nan. It took place in the women’s soccer game between China and the United States. The TV showed several signs bearing Chinese characters being flaunted in the audience. A long horizontal one, held by two men, declared MARCH FORWARD, MARCH FORWARD! BRAVE SISTERS, YOU MUST WIN FOR YOUR BROTHERS WHO ARE FULL OF HATRED. An American woman reporter asked the men what the sign said, but they shook their heads, grinning and pretending they didn’t understand her. Those words were a parody of the beginning of the theme song in the revolutionary ballet The Red Wo
men Detachment. The reporter had some inkling of the message, but she couldn’t get the men to level with her. The sign bothered Nan and Pingping; they surmised that the two men had probably failed to find a decent job here or get a green card.

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  ONE MORNING Mei Hong came and said to Nan, “We need some mung-bean soup. This Atlanta heat is too much for our athletes. Some of them have had sunstroke. We must help them relieve the heat.”

  “We don’t offer mung-bean soup,” Nan told her.

  “No place does. That’s why I came to you.”

  “What do you want me to do?”

  “Boil a large pot of the soup and I’ll personally take it to them.”

  Nan wanted to ask her how much she’d pay him, but seeing her earnest face filmed with perspiration, he didn’t mention money. Mung beans weren’t expensive—two pounds, enough for a pot of the soup, cost just over a dollar.

  The next morning he boiled the soup in a cauldron and ladled it into a tall stainless-steel pot. Mei Hong came and sealed the lid of the pot with duct tape. Nan helped her load it into the back of her SUV. Having promised to return the pot that very day, she drove away.

  Pingping disliked Mei Hong, saying that she was like a village leader or a Party secretary of a small work unit. “She acts as if she runs our life,” Pingping complained.

  The pot didn’t come back that evening. Two days passed without any trace of it. When Mei Hong arrived to get the shrimp and rice, Nan asked her where it was. At first she dodged the question and just promised to bring it back, but then admitted she didn’t know its whereabouts either. She explained, “I told them it was mung-bean soup, but they wouldn’t let the athletes drink it. They were afraid the soup might affect their urine tests.”

  “What?” Nan couldn’t believe his ears. “It had nothing in it but a few beans. I didn’t even dare to put in sugar.”

  “I know. They wouldn’t listen to me, because their higher-ups had ordered them not to accept any drinks from outside. So they wanted ice instead of mung-bean soup. We used the pot to carry ice into the Olympic Village.”

  “What happened to the pot? Why didn’t you bring it back?”

  “I tried to personally take the pot filled with ice into the compound, but the guards blocked me. One of them shouted, ‘No taggy, no entry, Mama-san.’ Damn that camel! Do I look like an old Korean woman?”

  Nan quenched his impulse to laugh. “So you dumped the soup, didn’t you?”

  “Yes, I’m sorry. I couldn’t follow the pot.”

  “I want it back. I spent nineteen dollars for it.”

  “I’ll see what I can do.”

  After that conversation, Mei Hong stopped coming to fetch food, so Nan gave up cooking lunch for the athletes. The Wus were glad that finally the woman seemed to have disappeared from their lives.

  18

  DICK’S book, Unexpected Gifts, came out in August and was well received. These days he was busy reading at colleges and libraries and seldom came to the Gold Wok. Nan saw a brief but positive review of the book in the Sunday New York Times, which he often bought at Kroger. He could tell that Dick was now taken more seriously by critics. He phoned his friend, who was not in, so he left a congratulatory message. Dick didn’t return his call. He was traveling a lot lately.

  Nan wondered whether his friend had abandoned him. Then one afternoon Dick showed up, the same disheveled man in an unbuttoned denim jacket. He didn’t look happy and told Nan, “My book is doing well, but the press won’t reprint it.”

  “Why? Don’t zey want to sell more books?”

  “I don’t know. They’ve never planned to make money from poetry. Once a book has sold out, it’s dead.”

  “Dead in just two mons?”

  “Well, not yet. They still have three hundred copies in stock, but once those are gone the book will be out of print.” He let out a sigh.

  “Zat’s terrible.”

  “See, whenever I finish a book, I’ll go through a big crisis, not knowing who will publish it. Whenever my book is doing well, it will create another crisis, because it means the book will be gone soon. It’s very hard to keep a book of poetry in print for up to three years.”

  “Man, you have depressed me,” Nan said gravely.

  “Don’t get upset. We write poetry because we love it. To tell the truth, if I didn’t write, I don’t know if I could have lived so long. I don’t regret doing it.”

  That baffled Nan, who felt Dick could easily live without making poems. Dick might just have wanted to sound theatrical. Look at Nan himself—he hadn’t written anything for a long time, and still he was breathing normally, in the pink, as it were. So he had his doubts about Dick’s confession. Not until several years later did he fully understand the truth of his friend’s words.

  19

  THE BERNSTEIN GALLERY in Atlanta was going to hold its fall show, at which some painters in the Southeast would be featured. Bao mailed Nan a card that bore a painting from his Shanghai series and the information on the exhibition. He wrote that he hoped to see Nan there and that he had invited Dick as well. Nan knew Dick wouldn’t be there, for these days his friend was always out of town giving readings, except when he had to come back and teach.

  Nan managed to go to the show on the opening day. He arrived ahead of the crowd in the afternoon, as he’d have to leave early before the busy hours started at the restaurant. Bao wasn’t there yet, so Nan was able to walk around and look carefully at the works by all twenty-three artists. He found only a few of them remarkable. He noticed the prices for the paintings were not as high as he had expected; the most expensive piece was marked for $6,000. Among these paintings, Bao’s didn’t stand out at all. Most of his works were priced around $3,000; evidently Tim and Brian had overstated the case when Nan had met them. He wasn’t impressed by Bao’s new works either. The whole Shanghai series looked like an imitation of van Gogh, dull and even clotty in places, without the master’s brightness and vibrations. The Hunagpu Bund was presented like a streetscape; without the title, few people could have related it to the Shanghai waterside. The view of a thoroughfare in one painting lacked specifics, as if it were a scene of nineteenth-century Paris. Below Bao’s central piece sat a large bin containing numerous smaller objets d’art made by him: a still life of chrysanthemums, a pencil drawing of a Himalayan cat, a gouache of a dancing girl, a miniature seascape. These were priced between $150 and $300. They reminded Nan of a Chinese buffet that offered numerous choices, none of which was refined or sumptuous. Obviously Bao, cashing in on his success, had diffused his energy and lost his creative center. This troubled Nan.

  Ian Bernstein, a thickset, swarthy man and the owner of the gallery, greeted the early arrivals with a tumbler of mimosa in his large, veined hand. Nan talked with him while they stood in front of his friend’s works. “What do you sink of Bao’s new paintings?” he asked Mr. Bernstein, who was also Bao’s agent.

  “I’m not bowled over by them.” The host screwed up his left eye.

  “Not as good as his Venice series, right?”

  “Who would buy these? They don’t have enough life in them. Even the colors are too dull for me.”

  “I agree.”

  Bao appeared in the entryway. Mr. Bernstein went up to him and they hugged warmly. Then Bao came over and shook hands with Nan. He was fatter than five months before and looked stiff and rustic in his dark green three-piece suit and canary yellow necktie. Nan was determined not to praise his new works, so he asked about his health and his family. Bao was not only married but also an expectant father; his wife was due the next spring. After the birth of their baby, mother and child would come to join him here. “I’m going to buy a piece of land in a suburb of Atlanta and build my home on it,” Bao told Nan proudly.

  “That’s great. Have you decided in what area yet?”

  “Probably somewhere in Cobb County.”

  “It has a good school system.”

  “So I have heard.”

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sp; Frank, Bao’s lawyer student, emerged from behind. He had brought along his family, his wife and two sons. Bao turned away to greet them.

  Seizing this opportunity, Nan disengaged himself. He was afraid his friend would ask him to comment on the Shanghai series. Part of him wanted to tell Bao the truth, which would have been embarrassing to both of them. He moved around to look some more and came upon a set of landscapes by a Floridian painter named Kent Philips. Unlike the other artists, who each had at least half a dozen paintings on show, this man had only three pieces here, none of which was fancy. But Nan liked them very much, fascinated by their dark, luminous quality. In these landscapes, every stream, every tree, every animal, every rock possessed a shimmering spirit that seemed transcendental and mysterious. The paintings had depth and a kind of darkness that reminded Nan of the forests in New England. Nan greeted the short, pudgy artist who stood beside his works as if unable to mingle with others, though his three pieces were all priced above $5,000.

  “I love your work,” Nan said sincerely.

  “Thanks. That means a lot.”

  “Is zis someplace in Florida?” He pointed at the middle piece.

  “No, I painted them in Montana.”